Hey everyone! It’s great to get my own voice now! Mr. Super Important is always going on and on about this being his blog and all. He can’t just write me off as a supporting character in every post now! I’ve got my own one! I’m just as important to Cireana as he is!
Though I am still thankful Madelynn isn’t showing up. Nothing against her, we just don’t…work together very well. She’s all about staying in shape and doing whatever she has to do to get wherever. If she has to dress in a panda suit and spin around in circles to survive, she’ll do it and not give a second thought.
Maybe that isn’t so bad. It would be really hilarious to see. But if she has to put a knife through someone to survive, she’d do that without a second thought as well. Sure, maybe she’d hesitate for a while but most likely she’d…
I don’t want to talk about that anymore. This is a rare chance to express myself without any kind of interruptions! No one cutting me off and stopping my train of thought! And no one to keep me from doing anything else! I could do some back flips right now if I wanted to! Watch!
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Ta-daa!
…Oh yeah. There aren’t any pictures with this kind of post. It’s the first one, I still have to get used to it.
I should take advantage of flying solo by going into a topic that the other people in Cireana either know nothing about or are totally afraid of discussing. That would be…
…Romance. I know that he knows little about it and would hate to bring such a topic up. I guess there are some good reasons behind that, but no need to go into them. Otherwise he’d draw up some mob and drive me out completely.
I don’t know why, but I feel like there are a whole lot of other people who wouldn’t be comfy around this topic. It almost feels like romance has become a kind of weird taboo with people lately. All this talk about divorce, online dating starting to dominate how things start, and we can always rely on the media to popularize the “perfect” romance. As much as I REALLY want to believe in it, it isn’t really there…
…I’m getting all moody just saying that…sigh. Come on, snap out of it. This is your moment…err, post! Unlike those posts with him I don’t want this to drag on forever and ever! So now I’m going to pick my soundtrack and set the tone all on my own! Something romantic would be…
Oooh, he would be SO angry if he heard me playing this song. Good thing he’s not here and can’t stand to kick me out. Hehehe…I can be devious too!
Back to the topic in question. So romance…how do we kick it off? It seems like one of those words where when you think about the actual definition you end up stumped. And it’ll probably be different from person to person. I know all three of us have different ideas of what it means.
I guess to me romance is just being close with someone and being able to freely express emotion, though that’s maybe just because I’m too emotional to begin with. A lot of times when you talk with people there’s always some kind of…guardedness involved. Whenever there’s someone new we always have to be wary in case they want to cause trouble or take advantage of us.
And not in THAT way! …At least not all the time; there are those unfortunate times, most likely at wild parties and plastic cups. And poor supervision of said cups…eww…
Anyway, it’s really nice to be able to express all of our inner feelings we keep inside to another different person. Being open and vulnerable without fear…I don’t really know why but it’s a really great feeling. Maybe it just helps us feel safer in this world, knowing there’s at least one place we can drop our defenses and not feel totally helpless. Then when we have to raise our defenses back up for the rest of our lives we can go with the knowledge there’s still one safe place in our lives. A safe place we know is there, such a pleasing thought…
And there’s so much more to it too! It makes us real people! Without romance, or even any kind of human connection like it, none of us would truly be real people!
I mean, for something to be real is for it to exist outside of our own perceptions, right? That’s the technical definition I think we gave it a few posts back. All the aspects of our internal world, whether they’re our fantasies, our feelings, our ideals, or even our deepest nightmares, are at first only known to us and us alone! If we didn’t exist, none of these feelings would exist since we wouldn’t be there to perceive them. Or even to create them!
We connect with people and open up parts of our internal worlds to them, or maybe even all of them. We can be totally open and close, reveal the facts we used to only mutter to ourselves in our heads! They hear them, accept them, and value that connection too!
Don’t you see it?! Through that connection we bring our internal world into the view of another person! They perceive it as well! Our internal world we had to hide before just became real since another person is perceiving them through us! What was so important to us and drives so much of what we do as humans just became real! I love it!
I love…love. I love the self-actualization that it brings to people. And with that self-actualization comes happiness. I don’t care if I’m not technically a real person; I still have a strong connection with another. And that…well, that makes me as real as them.
But I don’t love how undervalued this view is getting. Not just by the people I know, but just in the world today. I don’t know how, but this idea of romance got lost or was never discovered by way too many people.
Maybe it’s just how modern the world is getting. People are getting caught up in…this hurricane of how technical and impersonal the world is becoming. Too many people are…undervaluing human relationships. I know they were never perfect, but it’s just getting too worse for me. It’s the cheapening of the generation, and of being close.
And all this available technology and access to porn is making people too perverted; that with all the media advertisements and entertainment that glamorize and sexualize our ideals of romantic partners. They have people looking for the wrong things in romance! Now it’s just finding someone primarily with good looks or a hot body! Since when is that the highest priority?! Like looks have ever had a real effect on our personalities, just how other people perceive them! GRAH! I can’t stand it! I…
Err…sorry; I got a little caught up in that. I take this stuff a bit too seriously. It’s just that the only two people I can talk with don’t see it like I do. One of them sees romance as this stupid emotional need tacked onto humans due to evolution and getting smarter or whatever. And the other one of them is too hesitant and confused about romance to ever give it enough serious thought. I do everything I can to help but he just never moves on.
…I should get used to it, maybe. People can rant about whatever they want online and feel like it changes things, but at the most all it’ll do is make some people more aware for a little while. Probably no one will see this, and things will stay just as…”wonderful” as they had before.
I really should get used to this fact. I really should. It would be much better if I did…it would…but I know I never will get used to it. That’s the price of being human…as he would say, anyway.
I don’t think it’s a price; it’s just a part of being human.
